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| 02:46pm 10/06/2005 |
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so today.. mom, jason and i went and got blueberrys.. ALOT of blueberrys.. they are so good..right now im waiting on my paycheck.. umm then im going to do a hole lot of nothing.. |
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| 10:39pm 09/06/2005 |
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so here i sit AGAIN.. but not for long im prob going to go watch TV.. tomorrow is payday.. i cant wait to see how much i made.. it should be pritty good.. because i have been working my ass off....ummmm.. im going to go tomorrow and get a NC ID.. so i can go to the bank and open a bank thing-e.. and then mom and i are going to go get bluebarrys yummmy.. i hope we can get alot of um.. cheep..bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored... yepp IM BORED.. ok im going to go watch some TV should prob get to bed soon so i dont sleep tomorrow away... |
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| 05:23pm 09/06/2005 |
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I love you
Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world
I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me
And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side
Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you
Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you, I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love
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| 04:56pm 09/06/2005 |
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yepp im sooooooooooooooooo bored.. today was my day off.. wes called me and we talked for a good 30 to 45 mins.. but the phones were messing up b/c it was raining over there.. so it was hard to talk some of the time.. but we did... and im happy.. after that i went back to sleep.. did fig i should get up.. i would have been just sitting on my ass watching TV all day.. i got up at like idk.. 130 2 or something like that.. had something to eat.. and then got on the net and started looking at shit.. got even more bored and started reading peoples old LJ.. some funny shit.. but now im done doing that and i dont know what else todo.. im about to get a shower.. i wish i knew someone here that i could go chill with and like go shoping and to the movies with.. and not have to do everything with my mom.. im a loser..yes i am.. and no one is on line.. i fig b/c they have lives.. i truel would have rather worked today.. the only good part was talking to my baby.. i wish i couold just go back to sleep.. but im not sleepy... ill prob go play with my hair or something..IDK maybe go for a walk..or not.. b/c its hot out.. and i know i talk about alot of nothing huh? and no one reads this anyhow so i can and it doesnt matter..... hmmmmmm.. IM BORED.... i want to go shoping.. but you know i truly dont need any new cloths b/c i dont have naywhere to go./....hahahaha.. yepp im going crazy.... anyhow..
how cute is this shit.. and im not talking about the puppy..lol...
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| 08:19pm 27/04/2005 |
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so yeah.. here i sit with nothing to do.. talking to ashleigh lawler.. i love her.. :) .. well.. a lil update on me.. seeing that i havent writen in here in FOREVER.. nto much has been going on in my life.. but things have been going on now.. well.. i got a job at a hair place.. thats kol.. i havnt started yet but i will next week.. ummm... i was about to have a car that got messed up.. the car didnt seem as nice as we thought..so n/m on that.. so im just going to save up like $1000 and go get a car from a by here pay here place.. like something.. i dont know...anyhow..wes is over in afganastan... e has been there for about a month..only 11 more to go..we will prob be getting married when he comes home..i miss him so bad.. ummm .... you know other then what i have just writen there isnt anything going on. for the most part i sleep all the time.. and eat.. and other then that im with my mom being stupid or shoping.. or im watching TV.. so yeah.. my life is VERY boring.. but it wont be forever right... some people know what im talking about.. ;).. anyhow. im going to go... |
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| 12:03am 26/02/2005 |
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so WOW its been soooooooooooooooooo long..i always get on here and read about other people but i just never update.. my life is going a lil nutty right now.. well to update i forget if i put some stuff so if im saying the same things sorry.. well wesley and i are ingaged he asked me befor he got on his plain to go back to AIT.. it was so sweet... well after that i came back to NC.. and ive been sitting on my ass.. doing nothing.. b/c theres nothing to do.. wesley is now in Washington state.. hes been there for about a week.. and come to find out he is going to be getting shiped off to afganastan in a month... what kind of SHIT is that.. hes going to be gone for a year.. maybe more.. i hate the fucking ARMY...stupid assholes.. ewwwwwwwwwww... other then that things have been shity too.. i have a kidney infection. my temp was 104.6 and i had to go to the ER and then did ALOT of shit to me and i was there for 6 hours and the put things in me and ewwwwwwww it wasnt fun.. but my mom was there with me so it wasnt as bad.. then they gave me some meds and i went home..im alot better now.. but sometimes it still hurts and my head hurts bad and i have to get in bed...so all in all righ tnow im not very happy with my life.. my friend carrie is getting married april 2 im so happy for her.. but i prob wont be able to get to go to it b/c i have no money and dont have a way to get to ohio.. :( thats so shity.. it makes me want to cry just thinking about it... b/c i want to be there so bad b/c its like the biggest day of her life and i want to be a part of it.. BLAH.. im going to stop talking about that...hmm other then that.. ive been reading again.. watching TV.. from being sick i got down to 104 lbs...i was at 118. and i sleep ALOT..hopefuly i wes will be flying me out to WA soom for a week or so i want to see him so bad.. i miss my baby. i would give anything to be able to give him a hug and kiss.. a few days ago i called everyone.. well my close friends it was nice to see how everyone was doing.. and everyone seems to be doing alot better then i am..im happy for them.. but you know thats how it always seems to go for me.. when everythings going so good for me and they couldnt get any better everyone else is doing sort of crapy but then when everyone else is doing good my life gos to shit.. but oh well.. im happy for everyone else.. |
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| 07:35pm 20/12/2004 |
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All i have to say is im HAPPY.. I LOVE MY BABY.. ifs soooooooooo good to get to be with him.. and hold is hand and give him hugs and kisses.. |
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| 03:57pm 17/12/2004 |
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i never thought i would be happy to be back in the ville.. dont get me wrong i love living with my mom.. but its so boring.. i dont know ne one there.. but oh well.. so im back for christmas.. i got here the 15 and i will leave jan 5.. i know my moms not to happy about me not being there for xmas but i have to see wes.. he gets to come home for like 2 and 1/2 weeks or so.. so im so happy.. i cant wait to see him.. his plain comes in tomorrow.. :D.. yesteday i did a lil xmas shopping with carrie... and i left the bag in her rents car.. :P. so ill have to get that from her.. its so funny.. b/c she got me an xmas gift and was like do you want it.. and i said ok.. and it was the same thing i got her for xmas.. im going to give hers to her sometime this week when ever i see her.. same with ashleighs.. afer shoping yesterday with carrie.. i came back home and went out to eat with dad.. and then came back here and mark and vici dads friends came over and did some stuff.. i fig i shold spend sometime with my dad now..b/c when wes gets her i wont be here at all.. but tonight im going over to wesleys house like prob around 730 8 or so.. and im going to help pam and prob stay the night.. b/c eric and i are going to go get wes tomorrow.. :D i just cant wait.. i miss him so much i want to give him a big hug and kiss.. he will prob get sk of me b/c im going to be up his butt 24/7.. but oh well lol.. thats what he get for leaving me and going into the army.. :P..but ne how im going to go get a shower.. |
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| 10:49pm 20/11/2004 |
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sooo. yeah.. i havent gotn to talk to wes for about a week it makes me sad.. he didnt call me last sunday like he said he would.. but i know he would of if he could.. and he didnt get on the net today or call.. so i fig somethings going on like hes out in the woods or something.. IDK but i do know i miss him alot.. he said he would write me letters still and mail them to me but he hasnt... so im going to yell at him.. ;) not really... but yeah ive been sitting around the house watching TV not doing much of nething.. i highlighted my hair yesterday.. i still dont know if i like it or not..IDK..umm my mom got a new puter from dell its rather nice.. its SOOOOO much better then my bros laptop.. god i hated that thing.. sooo.. yeah i think im like the only person i know that is home on a saturday night.. i wish carrie or ash were home so i had someone to talk to. oh well.. but yeah i really dont want to go out.. i dont like doing things if wes isnt with me.. it just doesnt feel right...i miss him so much.. my mom makes it not so hard.. shes funny.and just fun to be around.. we did a lil shoping yesterday.. it was cool.. but yeah we got the puter last night we had to go to upsw at like 8 and then it wouldnt fit in the car.. lol.. so we had to rig the trunk.. then we got it home wand set it all up.. but this today mom couldnt get on the net so i had to call dell.. but i got it fixed.. i was pissed. b/c i know if had something to do with jason being on it lastnight..but oh well.. mom made a note that no one can D/L nething or change nething on it. so we'll see hwat happens.. ne how.. im going ot be comming back to the ville for christmas.. i just cant wait b/c my honey gets to come home..i want to go ice skating and go to the movies and do stuff. i cant wait to just fall asleep beside him.. or give him a BIG hug... i miss him so much..:(.. |
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| 01:34am 06/11/2004 |
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i went to KY to see wesley grad from the army bootcamp.. he looks so dif. but he looks good. he lost alot of lbs. he can get on my back now and i can walk around. lol.. im a dork.. but befor e couldnt do that i would fall on my face b/c he was 210lbs.. anyhow.. it was so nice seeing him.. it felt so good to hold his hand and give him a kiss.. i miss him so much.. its like i dont feel right without him by my side.anyhow we got a hotel room b/c he got 36 hours befor he had to leave for him AIT. it was so nice getting to fall asleep in his arms.. god i miss that so much.. i didnt sleep much i just watched him sleep.. hes just so cute.. i miss him..i wish we would have gotn to spend more time together. but it would have still been hard as hell to say goodbye again..it was harder this time then it was when he left for bootcamp.. just being away from him just makes me see how much i need him in my life..i cryed alot of the time we were alone.. i just couldnt help it.. b/c there has been shit going on in my life that i havent had him there for and it felt really good to get it out.. and just have him hold me and tell me that everythings ok..god i need him here right now..44 or 46 days untill i see him again. he gets to come home for xmas so im coming back to the ville.. i know my moms not going to be to happy about it but... i just have to see him. i know she will understand..he said that he may have a really big gift for me.. but well see.. :D ... i miss my baby.. he gave me his army ring well he gave it to me to keep it..i love my baby so much.. (kiss) |
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| 01:47am 05/10/2004 |
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SOOOO HAS NE ONE MISSED ME..?..lol yeah right no one even reads this..well to update everone.. if you didnt know i live in wilmington NC..with my mom now.. but i probnot for long b/c wesley and i will prob be getting married.. but IDK he has but hasnt asked me yet..lol.. you would of had to of been ther... ne how weslesy grad from the army if nov 3 so im going to go see that.. so ill be in the ville oct 28 - nov 10 or 11.. so if ne one wants to chill thats kol with me... ummmmm.. not much goes on here.. i dont have ne friends here so i dont do much unless its with my mom.. we go shoping .. thats ALWAYS fun... umm idont have a job..ummm mostley i sit around all day waiting for the mail man to come so i can see if i got a letter from wes.. i miss him so much.. um... really nothing ele gos on.. and i thougth that ville was boring shit.. lol... umm.. i cant wait to stat my life with wesley... i know people will think im really stupid for wanting to get married at 19 but oh well.. its what i want more then enthing in the world. and for ne one that reads this and may some how know my dad or sometone thats knows my dad...yeah it would be nice if you didnt say nething.. my rent dont know ne thing. .and truthfuly i dont know much my self.. but ne how imgoing to go to bed.. |
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| 10:16pm 04/09/2004 |
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yeah .. tomorrow i move to NC.. i sort of dont want to go but then again to do.. idk moving is just so big you know.. its crazy.. but yeah we leave tomorrow andi dont even have everything packed..BLAH..i dont want to do it i was there was just someway to get it there without doing nething.. ne how.. i miss wesley so much im going to go crazy.. i called him bestfriend up and we talked for like 3 1/2 hours.. hes so funny. i love los.. lol.. but yeah.. other then that i have been trying to spend a lil time with my friends.. but ash and been biz with school and carrie with her new b/f.. but carrie and i did chill friday we went to newark and wathced the zanesville game..yeah zanesvilles football team is shity. i feel sorry for um. lol.. i wish wes would call me. that would be so nice.. god i miss him so much.. i still get up and go to call him or see if hes on msn.. and then it hits me hes gone.. its so shity that he cant even call me.. they should let up do that.. just so i could now that hes ok.. b/c sometime i think maybe something happend to him and hes been hurt or soemthing.. i still cry alot too..i cant wait till he gets home and we can start a life together.. but ne how i have to go start on my room again.. i think i only have like 2 more boxs of shit to pack.. |
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wesley left.. on the 26 carrie and i went to columbus to see him off.. it was sad.. but i didnt cry untill i got n the car. i was trying to be strong for him..a nd not make it harder on him leaveing.. but i did like ask him not to go over and over again.. alot of things have happend just in the past week.. liek i feel like a diff person.. i feel like im missing a big part of me.. and that part is wesley.. i dont like being by my self.. b/c for over 2 years..and its like i havce always had him ther.. i never had to sit at home by my slef.. he was my life and its just hard to give up your life you know what im saying..ne min it was there and the nexted it was gone. i miss him so much and its only been 1 day..i feel like someone is sitting on me and my heart is going to bust ne min...and everything i see makes me think about him.. and when i go in my room.. i cant help but cry..i know in time it will go away..but for now i feel like im in hell.... |
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i just got home from wesley. i love my baby. god so much has been going on but then again nothing has been. idk. well alot of shit is comming up. like in 9 days wesley leaves for boot camp. and then the week of the 30th im going to be moving to my moms.. its all going so fast.. everyones leavng for school. and other things.. it just doesnt seem right.. BLAH.. well my last day working at pickinsave is the 21. i want to have the last 4 days wes is here all for him.and i know that i wouldnt be able to go back to work after he left.. b/c im going to go fucking crazy..this is shity..i dont want my life to change so much so fast |
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| 03:23am 05/07/2004 |
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ok so hers a lil "update" on my life;
1) got a job at pick-n-save in south town. *ne one need a job there take-n app's*
2)as of the 26 june wesley and i have been together for 2 years.
3)i have been driving my car
4)ummmmmm lol... not much is going on.. all of that happend in like the past few weeks.. my life is boring
ne how today was the 4th of july. and i was working fomr 7-11:30 oh what fun.. well truthfuly it was kid of fun.. the people i woke with are nice..some are a lil crazy but kol..
ummm last week chilled with carrie and ash a few days it was fun... we went out to eat one night.. lol and were all sitting around and talking bout shit.. and it so made me think of sex in the city.. lol.. im a dork i know.. well right now im making a cake and cup cakes and its 3:31 AM... yeah i know how i have fun.. lol..na i have been watching the food chan on TV and like they keep having shows about cakes so im going to try and make one my self... i have to work tue 2:30-10:30, wed 3-11, thur 6-11:30 & sat 11-4.. that will be good money.. but i hate working the late hours.. b/c then i dont get to see my bay or do nething.. its shity...oh well..so it looks like ill be moving in august sometime after the 25. thats when wes leaves.. but ne how im going to get off here b/c i think im going to go to bed.. so i can get up and do something tomorrow on my day off.. |
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1.) What time is it?: 4:06 AM
2.) What's the date?: June 19
3.) Are you psyched about filling out this survey?: no
All About You
4.) Full name: Jessica Marie Towning
5.) Nicknames: Jess, sis, J,lil gummy bear, baby
6.) If you could change your name, what would you change it to?: I wouldnt
7.) Age: 19
8.) If you could be any other age, what age would you be?: 21
9.) Height: 5'2"
10.) Weight: 115
11.) Shoe Size:5-61/2
12.) Hair color and Eye Color: hair-red,brow,blond, Eyes-gray,blue,green
13.) Where do you live?:OHIO
14.) Do you like it there?: ummmm..sometimes.but most the time NO.
15.) Why/why not?: NEVER anything to do
16.) What's one thing that makes you unique?:IDK.. i just am
17.) What are your best features?:eyes
18.) Worst features: my body
19.) What about your body are you most confident about?: nothing
20.) Most self-conscious about?: butt,legs,belly,boobs,hips
Favorite...
21.) Hangouts: My babys house
22.) Websites:www.lifesaver.com
23.) Movies:GOD where do i start? I have ALOT of fav movies
24.) Songs: one more day
25.) Fashion Designers/Brands:forever 21
LEAST Favorite...
26.) Bands/Groups: dave matthews band
27.) Songs: anything by dave matthews
28.) TV Shows: COPS
29.) Movies: War movies
Family
30.) Siblings: 3 brothers duston, chris, & jason
31.) Do you like your family?: sometimes.
32.) Why/why not?: the know just how to bug the hell out of me
48.) What's the best thing about your dad?:umm hes unlike most people i know.
49.) The worst?:how he trys to make fun of me infront of people
50.) What's the best things about your mom?:she and i are just alike.
51.) The worst?: she mist out on me growing up
Do you...
52.) Like your appearance?: NO
53.) Like your personality?: sometimes
54.) Think you're funny?: nope
55.) Have a lot of friends?: nope
56.) Usually go out on Friday nights?: nope
57.) Believe in aliens?: yeah
58.) Believe in love at first sight?: YEP it happened to me
59.) Believe in astrology: yep
60.) Have a boy/girl friend?: yes..and i have to say that i love him more then ne thing in this hole world
61.) If so, who?: Wesley my baby
~*~Friends~*~
62.)Who's your best friend(s)?: wesley, ashleigh, & carrie
63.) Who can make you smile, no matter what mood you are in?: carrie or ashleigh
64.) Which person do you PRETEND to be friends with but secretly hate?: no one.. i think that if you hate somone why the hell would you be frends with um?
65.) Do any of your friends just tick you off?: sometimes
66.) Do you get sick of your friends easily?: nope
67.) Which friend do you secretly LOVE?: wesley..oops thats not a secret
68.) If you could have 5 friends stranded on an island with you, who would you pick?: wesley,carrie,ashleigh and idk
69.) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you are comfortable enough with to talk about almost anything?:yep wesley
Love
70.) Are you in love?: yes
71.) If not, have you ever been in love?: n/a
72.) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: who said it wasnt?
73.) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: nope
76.) Would you still carry out a relationship if your family absolutely hated the person you were dating?: yes
Would you like to have...
77.) A one-way ticket to Italy?: nope.. then i couldnt get home
78.) An ice-cream sundae?: HELL YES
79.) Aretha Franklin's attitude and her tell-you-off voice?:yeah
80.) A trip around the world with nothing but the clothes on your back?: umm no
81.) Your brother/sister go away somewhere for a really long time?:well seeing that has happend to me befor.no b/c i would miss them
Have you ever...
86.) Drank?: yes
87.) Smoked?: yeah
88.) Done drugs?: yes
92.) Told someone you loved them?: everyday
93.) Needed to tell somebody something but were afraid you couldn't trust them?: yes
94.) Cut class?: yeah
95.) Got in a fight?:yeah
96.) Felt suicidal?: nope
Right Now
97.) Listening to: the AC
99.) Wearing: white tank-top,pink shorts
101.) Thinking: it hurst when my ass sticks to this stupid chair
102.) Talking to: my self
103.) Feeling: sleepy,bord
104.) What is the craziest thing you've done in the past?: lol carrie knows
105.) If you could change one thing you have done in the last 24 hours, what would it be?:ummmmmmmm? today was a good day
106.) If you could've been born at any point in time, when would you pick?: 1983
107.) List all the places you've visited in the past: the keys,NC,SC,WV,V,FL???
108.) Right now, what is your biggest regret?:that im still up
110.) Do you want to get married?: yeah
111.) If so, at what age?: 23-25
112.) Who do you want to marry?: wesley
114.) What song will be played at your wedding?: One more day by lonestar
115.) How many guests will you have?: I would fig sround 100 maybe more maybe less
116.) Do you want to have kids?: yeah
117.) If so, how many?: one.. but i could go for two
118.) What are you going to name your kids?: Elizabeth Marie for the girl, and Gaven James for the boy
119.) What do you think would be the worst way to die?:I dont know..
122.) Write your own gravestone engraving:ummm IDK? ill leave that up to someone else
123.) What song will be played at your funeral?: Idk.. i dont like questons like this
124.) Do you wish you could be alive when the world was ending, just to experience it?:yeah |
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there are about 30 or less day left of school for the sens.. its crazy..got-ya starts the 19 thats hsould be fun..:D..umm wes & i are great..I LOVE MY BABY..thats about it.. ill be 19 in a month. |
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| 12:59pm 16/01/2004 |
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I hate how theres nothing to do... i want to go ice sk8ing. or something i dont know.. just as ling as i dont have to be in this house ne more.. ne how..things hav been going good for the most part.. not alots been going on.. same old same old.. im about to go get a bath.. thers nothing else to do..and theres nothing on TV..well days will be comming on here in a few but i dont like the show much.. oh well.. lol... BLAH.. yeah i dont even have ne thing to talk about on here so im going to get off...
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